Today is Day 30 on our 40 day journey in and out of exile. I’m currently helping you see what it takes to return from exile.
Then on Day 29 I said you need to learn to be silent and listen. Make space in your life to see what God wants to show you about your life and hear what he has to say.
Now today, let’s talk about admitting. When God shows you who you really are, you need to admit it. Ouch. That’s not fun. We put so much energy into NOT going there.
Some of us spend our entire lives ignoring what is plain to everyone else that meets us. Isn’t that true? Someone can meet us and, in just a matter of minutes, discern a character defect that we defended, excused, or ignored for decades. Why is it so hard to admit what is so plain to others?
Someone can meet us and, in just a matter of minutes, discern a character defect that we defended, excused, or ignored for decades.
A few months back I was preparing my Sunday message and I wrote in the text that “I’m a bit of a workaholic.” I was going to laugh when I said it, a little chuckle to show my guilty pleasure of nursing a habit that I know is wrong, yet prized in our culture.
But God convicted me that I was making light of a problem that I have always had. I’m not a “bit” of a workaholic. I’m a workaholic, in recovery just like any addict. Either it’s wrong or it’s not. I can’t cover it with a knowing laugh and hope people look the other way. But that’s what we do isn’t it? Rather than change, we put all kinds of defense mechanisms in place.
When God apprehended the apostle Paul and struck him with blindness, his quick response was: “What would you have me to do?” He immediately recognized that his blindness was an exile given by God to reveal to him what he was unwilling to see on his own.
In the same way, the story of Samson tells how he lived his whole life blind to his selfishness and greed until the Philistines burned his eyes out of his sockets. Only then did he begin to see what had been wrong with him his entire life.
My guess is you actually know what is wrong. You just haven’t been willing to admit it. If you truly can’t see, you might want to invite trusted people to give you anonymous feedback to help you. Either way, if you want to find the way out of exile, you need to admit what’s wrong.
What keeps you from admitting your character defects? What can you do to help fully admit them and begin the healing process? Leave a comment below.